if you only knew

i did see you in the class. friday at 9. not always but in a coincidence.

you could see my heart wanted to explode just by knowing you were behind me. you could see my face filled with emotions, of happiness or even sadness. but you didn't notice.

i wished you knew. but you weren't.

i wished you cared. but you weren't looking for one sec.

i wished i were that shiny so you could see me that time.

i wished. but it didn't happen.

not that time. not even now.

-ngantukbos

broken

mine is broken,
since a long time ago
and not healed until now.

i'm afraid
when i give it to you
it's still bleeding.

and when you know what it is
i know,
you'll leave
scared
keep thinking
how could i have it,
how could i stay strong, and
how could i still alive.

-halah embuh iki opo

hal salah untuk alasan yang tepat

Oh can't you see that i'm the one who understand you, been here all along so why can't you see? You belong with me.

 Hm, kadang ada aja orang yg mau nunggu sampe segitunya. Kadang ada aja orang yang terus sabar dan berharap, suatu saat nanti, dia bakal dapetin hasil yang sesuai. Kadang aja bisa berjalan dengan mulus, gari sedekep, entuk. Tapi, ada juga yang harus naik-turun gunung baru dapet.
Ada aja yang kaya gitu.