if you

if you hate me, that's okay
but i need to leave
because what we've done is so fcking hurt me

it's whatever, really
that you turn the reality
to make mw as the one who made it

well, i don't care
it's my fault in the end, isn't it?
i didn't say "no" for all these days anyway

-when in fact i'm dying for wanting us to stop-

if you only knew

i did see you in the class. friday at 9. not always but in a coincidence.

you could see my heart wanted to explode just by knowing you were behind me. you could see my face filled with emotions, of happiness or even sadness. but you didn't notice.

i wished you knew. but you weren't.

i wished you cared. but you weren't looking for one sec.

i wished i were that shiny so you could see me that time.

i wished. but it didn't happen.

not that time. not even now.

-ngantukbos

broken

mine is broken,
since a long time ago
and not healed until now.

i'm afraid
when i give it to you
it's still bleeding.

and when you know what it is
i know,
you'll leave
scared
keep thinking
how could i have it,
how could i stay strong, and
how could i still alive.

-halah embuh iki opo